swag won’t pay the bills but apparently neither will your degree
As I’m coming up on my 21st, my drives to work and school have all been full of memories of these last 20 years. Especially these last four years, which have been the greatest, yet lowest times of my life. I’ve been fortunate of all the people I’ve met, even if they’re not in my life anymore. All the family problems and heartaches have made me what I am today. No way in hell will I ever thank those who hurt me, but they’ve given me a sense of strength.
Seeing the nightmare of family problems that have constantly caused grey skies at my house have finally peaked a bit a sunshine in as I learn to be my own person. The relationship with my mom has never been stronger, I sometimes think more about what I wanna do for her, rather than what I wanna do for myself. Although all the troubled times have been hard, it established this unbreakable bond between my mom and I.
My friends. Three in particular: D, C, & J. They’ve pulled me out of all the shit I’ve been in. I’m sure D has a savings account just in case I get arrested and needs to bail me out. C and I have been texting everyday since Senior Year, the constant shit that’s said between us and that eventually ends up on twitter, is the highlight of our friendship. J is kinda recent into my life, but until now I don’t know what I’d do without her. Between all of them they took me out of the darkest time, my heartache. I knew better than dealing with someone for sooooo long but shit kinda seems okay enough sometimes that you don’t leave. Since I left I finally got the chance to appreciate myself, and not have someone constantly tell me what was good enough for them. That didn’t come right away to me, but my friends picked my ass up and told me what they saw in me. And I will never be able to repay them for all they do for me.
I’m so proud of where I am now. I’m ready for whatever has 21 has to offer. This wouldn’t be a good time for my liver to let me down.